Dear Alien...A flash?

Dear Alien,

I left the dentist office this afternoon and for the quickest of flashes, I felt I wasn't alone.  Like you were in there.  It was such a weird feeling - lasted for a few moments.  And then it was gone.  But I truly felt like I wasn't alone.

3 days down.  11 to go.

Dear Alien...Tomorrow?

04/11/16

Dear Alien,

I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile.  It's just been too difficult after last month.  Trying to keep myself positive and with my eye on the prize (you) was just a little more than I can muster.

So this month, specifically tomorrow, we try IUI.  We are upping our game so to speak to try and get you to us a little faster.  I have equal parts hope and despair.  I can't envision that pink line forming on a test but at the same time, I can't picture it not happening this time.  Then again, I'm not sure if that's just because I really am hoping we don't have to go through IVF.

I'm trying to stay relaxed and not stress.  I'm trying to visualize.  I'm trying to drink water and take deep breaths.  I stuck myself with a needle last night.  I'm doing everything I can on my side to get you to us.  Or us to you?

Please alien.  Please.  Please please please.

I love you,
Mom